Sean Is 8

I keep telling him he is not allowed to have birthdays. Here he is being disobedient!

Getting It Together

So maybe I keep failing because I don't have enough to look forward to. I know am working towards 3 rewards for my exercise/weight goals (other than the actual weight loss). I keep coming up with more ideas. A few nights ago, I thought, "Why limit myself to the reward I want this week? I'm going to add in my other rewards from weeks past." I have decided that I am going to get some pretty cotton yarn if I can work out at least 3 times in a week for at least 30 minutes. I am going to get my hair done when I get down to 165. I also got out a jar and some macaroni noodles to earn another goal. I am putting one macaroni noodle in the jar for every 5 minutes that I exercise. When that jar is full, I am going to have a party. Most likely a girls night type thing. I am hoping that all of these things help. I really need to get off my lazy bum and stop talking about it. I seem to do decently on my days off, but the days I work are a challenge.

My house is getting cleaner and cleaner. I haven't seen a mouse in a bit, but I know they are still around. I'm going to keep up with the poison as well as get more. I am getting better at keeping up with the laundry, and my living room is looking great.

I get worn out with everything that has to be done, but I know that it will be worth it in the end. I love my kids. They deserve me to be the best I can be. They deserve a clean house. They deserve everything I can give them.

Good Day

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Happy 60, Dad!

  

...and he thought we would for get such an important day.

Side Tracked

I haven't hit much in the way of goals this week. I have been so sidetracked by my mouse problem, I have not thought about any other cleaning. I have gotten cleaning accomplished, but I haven't concentrated on the living room specifically. I have cleaned my pantry and done my best to keep the crumbs and food off of the kitchen counter. At least my kitchen is clean...

Exercise has been an up and down thing. I need something to motivate me. Some how my waist line just isn't enough to motivate me. I know I need to lose to be healthy. I want to be healthy. I want to fit back into my clothes that I love.

Speaking of healthy, I went to the doctor yesterday for a regular thyroid check. I decided I don't like their scale. It adds about 10 pounds compared to my home scale. I also am going to have to start taking yet one more medication. I started it last night  and feel sick to my stomach today. I hate the side effects. I am hoping it will fix the problem though. Time will tell.

EEK!

I don't need to have the weather change for me to know it is fall. I get mice in my house to remind me. In the past, there was a cat in my house to kill vile things. This year, however, I have no cat (she moved out in January with her owner). With no cat in the house, the mice are worse this year than in the past. I have nest in my closet. It has made me scared to go into the closet because, well, they scare me. Last week, when getting something out of my pantry, a mouse saw me and ran back down the shelves and freaked me out. My solution to that, I spent 4 hours cleaning out the pantry and getting rid of the food they had gotten into. I now have nothing in the pantry that the mice can get into. I, also,  got some poison and put it next to the nest. So far, I have found 3 dead mice and threw them  away in the trash where they belong. I have seen a few more scurrying away, and I will get them, too. My plan this weekend while my kids are with their dad and after I get off work is to pull everything out of my closet and see what in there needs to be thrown out and get it vacuumed and the walls scrubbed. The nest will be gone! I am not going to let them win! This is my home!

I Must Exercise!

I am having a hard time motivating myself to exercise lately. I started a new program on my Biggest Loser game. I hope to be able to complete it this time. My goal is to get down to 165 pound in the next 4 weeks. That is only 6 pounds to lose. I can do this! I have done it in the past. When I hit this goal, I am going to get my hair done. Yep that is right. I am going to make myself pretty again.

Life Keeps Going

Last week was a hectic week for me. I decided to go back to school. The anniversary of my mom's and brother's accident passed. My boyfriend broke up with me. My ex-husband was being, well, himself (ugh).

After learning that the company that I work for has acquired more companies and they are expected to grow a lot in the next five or six years, I decided to go back to school to get an IT degree. I was going to take this semester off, but after talking it out with a few people, I decided to get back as soon as possible. I researched several schools, and decided on one that I felt would fit my needs the best. I feel good about this decision. I will write more on that when everything is started. Right now I am still working on the paper work to try to get an exception with financial aide because my income this year is far less than it was last year when my ex-husband was still in the picture.

August 30, 1996 is a day that will forever be in my mind. On that day my family was basically cut in half by a tragic accident. My mom's roommate was driving. She fell asleep at the wheel and hit a guard rail. My mom and brother, who were asleep at the time, were killed instantly. I still have days that I want to cuddle up to my mom or feel the protection of my big brother. This year marked the 15 year anniversary of that tragic accident. It is true that time does heal wounds, but not completely.  It doesn't sting as much, but there are days that it does still sting.

I am only going to touch on this real quick because it was part of my week. I am not going to dwell on it though. My boyfriend broke up with me last week as well. I have to admit I saw it coming. I am not really angry about it. I just wasn't a fan of the manner of the break up or the day that it happened.

I am, also, not going to go a lot into the manner of my ex-husband. He still tries to control me in some ways. He makes me think that he is going to take the kids away. I just have to remind myself that he is my ex for a reason. Not just because he didn't want to be married to me anymore. I needed to not be married to him anymore.

When it came to goals, I didn't really accomplish any of them. I did lose weight, but not by exercising. By the end of the week, my living room was clean. In fact, I cleaned it more than I have ever cleaned it. I moved furniture. I even shampooed the carpet (thanks to the extended lend of a capet cleaner from my friend). It took me about 3 hours to accomplish it all, but it is done and looking great! I got the dining room almost as clean, too. It is amazing what I can get done when I am bored!  I will get back on track this week, hopefully.