So far since John told me he was leaving I have lost 6 pounds. Most of that was from not really eating for the first week. The last 2 pounds were just a miracle. I have tried to do my Biggest Loser game a few times. It gets hard. The fact that I have a broken toe that was not healed very well yet and did jumping jacks with the game didn't help. (I never realized how important my little toe was until about a month ago.) I am doing my best to try to get at least some exercise done once a day. I accomplished at least 5 minutes 3 days this week, so I am counting that as an improvement.
I have found that I am getting worn out and cranky earlier lately. I think I am pushing myself too hard, but I guess I have no other choice. I have to work and life as a single mom is now my reality. The funny thing is that when it comes to home life, it isn't a whole lot different. In some ways it is less stressful because I am not worrying about where my husband is and what he is doing. It is a bit easier to push myself to do certain things like cleaning and putting the kids to bed because there is not another parent in the house who should be helping do it. I am starting to feel overwhelmed by all of the responsibilities that I have, but I think that once a routine is in place that feeling will calm down.
I have days where I am so depressed it takes all I have to get out of bed. Other days I feel so good about my future that I am upbeat and energetic. I don't think I will get off of this roller coaster anytime soon. I hope it gets better once we have filed for divorce and especially once it is final.
I will have something less depressing next time I post. Eric's birthday is coming up, so be ready!
Don't feel pressured to post something less depressing! It's your blog and you can post what you want! ;) Seriously, though, I think you're doing great with everything you're dealing with.
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