I Will Miss You

My grandparents at my sister's wedding

A wonderful lady passed away today. My sweet grandma. I don't know what to say about her right now. I think I am just too numb. She turned 86 two days ago. Right now the main thing that I can think of is that I forgot to call her on her birthday. I really wish I had talked to her even if it would have been for just a few minutes.
She battled cancer for many years. I can't even remember how many times were were told that she only had about a year left. I can tell you that the last time I remember hearing that was during my divorce over 2 years ago. She put up a good fight!
Sean came to me after he went to bed and simply said, "Cancer sucks. I have now had two people in my life die because of it." We don't know if that was what took her at this point, but to a kid who has never known her to not have cancer that has already lost a cousin to the horrible disease, that is how he sees it. All I could do was give him a hug and tell him that I know she loved him even if she didn't get to see him much. I also told him that he gets his love for reading from her. I told him about how when he was a baby and we went out to Michigan to see my grandparents how happy she was that he sat on her lap and listened to her read to him. He gave me a little sad smile and hugged me again and went to bed.