100 Push UP Challenge

I have decided to join the 100 Push Up challenge.  I found out about it on Fat Secret (a web site I have been going to to track my weight loss goals).  I am excited to do it!  I have been having a hard time making it to gym lately because of not having a car of my own that works.  John has no opposition to me stopping off at the gym on  the way home from work, but when I am driving his car, I feel like I am taking advantage of that.  I am determined to do this challenge though.  I will let you know how it goes.

I Lost My Daughter

I lost my sweet Noel today.  It was the scariest ten or fifteen minutes of my life!

Today was stake conference which means (now that I am the only parent going to church and it was how I grew up) FREE SUNDAY (no church).  I ordered a pay per view for the kids to watch and got comfy on the couch so that I could get a much needed nap.  Just before I fell asleep Noel asked if she could play outside.  I told her to stay in our yard and dozed off.  About ten minutes later John came home.  I told him Noel was playing in the front yard.  He told me that he didn't see her out there at all.  That was a bit scary, but I figured if I went outside and called for her she would come running and tell me how much fun she was having with one of the kids on the street.  No such luck.  I went inside, grabbed my jacket and some shoes, and started my real search.  There were some ladies down the street talking.  I figured that if she had wondered somewhere she would have had to have past them. They hadn't seen her, but said that they often see her at the house across the street from them.  I was starting to get more worried now.  John was in his car searching the neighborhood.  I went to that house and they hadn't seen her.  Finally, she came out of the house next door and acted like nothing was wrong.  She was just playing with her friend after all. 

I talked to her about letting us know where she is before she goes there.  I let her know that she scared me.  I am now considering setting the alarm when I am asleep so that she has to stay in.  I feel like the worst mom in the world because I don't even know what Noel is doing most of the time.

When it Rains, it Poors

That not only summerizes the weather for the last few day, it summerizes the last few weeks in my life.  I was given the exciting news that I earned a 15% bonus for both of my checks this month!  I made plans to get the pets to the vet and pay down some medical bills.  I, also, started listening to Dave Ramsey in the last month and got really excited about getting moving on his plan.  We had money still in the bank from out tax return to get some things fixed on John's car.  That is when it all started.  We end up having to come up with the money to completely pay off the car instead (long story, don't want to get into it).  Luckily he came up with a solution to take care of that by borrowing from someone else.  Since we don't like owing people money, we decided to double the payment we were paying for the car to the person we borrowed the money.  Not a bad soultion if we have to go that route.  Then, last Wednesday, my car broke down...again.  I have had the engine replace twice in that car in the last year.  It is very frustrating!  I have had to get rides from a co-worker all week because of hang up #3.  My schedule was changed for the week for a training class meaning I had to be there by 3pm on the same days that I usually work.  I had to miss Noel's talk on Sunday and cried all the way home from church after dropping the kids off with a friend (one of the best friends ever that I wouldn't be able to make this week work at all without). I have been late twice because of the reliablity of the only person I knew going to this class.  I realized Monday or Tuesday morning that our heater is not working properly.  I wasn't a huge deal until yesterday morning when the house was cold for not just me.  I got the space heater out of my bathroom and put it in the living room so that the kids could be warm.  Today, I got a call from my ride (on the last day of this class) saying that he was in detox and wouldn't be aloud to get out until sometime this evening.  Great!  Luckily there was a solution to this one.  John will come home from work early so that I can take his car (the way that I would get there had my schedule not changed anyway).  Another good thing is that the rain is calming down a bit for now.  I am hoping it will stay calmed so that I can walk Sean to school and get home fairly dry.

No Chocolate is Hard

My main reason for having a goal of not eating chocolate is because I seem to be alergic to it lately.  Let's just say I have beening having problems for at least the last few month and it is just getting worse.  The thing is that even though I know this and I am grown up enough to dicipline myself when it comes to what I eat, it is still TORTURE that just about every candy has chocolate including the candy the family got from the Easter Bunny for Easter.  No matter where I go (home, work, store, etc.)  chocolate is there.  I love chocolate.  One of my favorite foods is chocolate chip cookies or even chocolate chips alone.  How could this have happen to me?  I am still in hopes that if I go without it for a while, I will be able to eat my beloved chocolate again.  It worked with milk when I was a teenager and a smaller kid.  Why not now with something that I like even more?

Goals for April

Do you remember last year when I was accually accomplishing my goals and felt on top of the world?  I am trying that again.  I am really just working on weightloss because that is what is on my mind the most.  I have 3 goals for his month.  The first one is to go the month without chocolate.  This shouldn't be too hard since I seem to be alergic to it lately in any form but instant breakfast shakes.  I think I will allow myself one of those per week so that I don't feel too deprived.  The second goal is to drink no caffinated soda for the month.  I seem to do pretty good at this as long as I remember to bring Gatorade to work along with my caffine pills (I am happy to say I am down to only 1 a shift).  The third goal that I have for myself is to make it to the gym at least 3 times a week.  I made this goal at the beginning of March then lost my card.  I now have my card and have vowed to keep it in my wallet where is is, hopefully, safe.  I measured myself yesterday and plan to do so again at the beginning of next month.  I don't think I would feel very successful if I did it more often than that.

My big goal is to fit back into my swimsuit.  Not the ugly blue one that I got when I was pregnant with Eric and just at the stage where I wouldn't fit into my regular stuff.  I mean the one I got a few years ago when John and I went to Water World. (I dont' think there was a specific occation.  Probably just a chance to get away from the kids.)  If I can do so, and look good, I will take a picture of myself and post it on my blog (I am going to have to look really good).