The Future Me

I got a Wii for Christmas with The Biggest Loser game. I am feeling more motivated to get up and move.  I set up my avatar for a 12 week program.  I know it will be hard, but hopefully I can do it for that long.  I am going to try to concentrate on one week at a time.  I hope that by the time I finish the 12 weeks, my divorce will be final, and I will be ready for a new life and a new me.  I am starting to feel more positive about my future the more and more I am away from him.  I have noticed that when he is around that I am more stressed out and beat up.  I know I have to have dealings with him for the rest of my life because we have kids together.  With any luck, however, I will either find a new job or get a schedule that is more conducive to being a single mom in the next few months.

Pizza With The Kids

Sean's pizza (top), Eric's pizza (bottom)

My pizza (top), Noel's smiley pizza (bottom)

Monday night I decided to do something fun with my kids for dinner.  I went out and got stuff to make pizzas.  We each got to make one.  Then we had a picnic in the living room and watched the old version of How the Grinch Stole Christmas.  We all had a good time!

Excuse Me

I would just like to clarify something.  My kids don't know totally what is going on.  All they know is what they have figured out on their own.  At least two of the three are upset enough by that.  Talking to me about my problems in front of them will make me mad.  Even if they did know completely what is going on, coming up to me at church and talking to me about my husband leaving is inconsiderate especially in front of my kids.

What's Going On

Well, life knows how to through me a curve ball.  Perhaps it is not as unexpected as I would have hoped however.  I will post more later, but for now I will just say that John is moving out.  He will not tell me where he is going, but I know already.  I am not stupid.  I know how to pick up on enough clues to draw a fairly accurate conclusion.  I have been turned into a villain when he is speaking to his friends.  He knows the truth.  I have done things I am not proud of.  I think he knows now that I will NOT take how he treats me.  I will not sit in the dark anymore.  I do need him when it comes to the kids because they adore their father and I don't want to traumatize them or have them go without the necessities in life.  Other than that, at this point there is not a way for us to have even a friendship.  He would tell you it is because if what I have done, but we both know it goes beyond just me.  I know he doesn't read my blog, but I do suspect that he has friends that spy on my blog.  Maybe they will tell him what the evil witch has posted about him.  I don't know.

Book of Mormon

As some people know, I have been having a very hard time with my testimony lately.  I won't go into all of the reasons right now.  About a week ago the missionaries visited our family and gave us the first discussion.  They challenged us to read at least part of the Book of Mormon and pray about it.  This morning, as I was getting the kids breakfast, I decided it was a good time to look for the mp3's I have of the Book of Mormon and turn it on.  I think I am going to do this more often.  I am going to make a goal right now to listen to the Book of Mormon on the way to or from work at least 3 days a week.  This means putting off my Dave Ramsey pod casts, but I am up to this challenge and Dave can wait for a little while.  I'm not sure this will help, but it couldn't hurt. Right?

Decorating the Christmas Tree

Loving Siblings

Noel was having a hard time finding a seat that she liked for watching TV.  Eric decided to share his.

Now if I could just get them to act like this more often...

Crazy Dog

When I bought this trash can, the idea was that one with a lid would keep the dog out of it.  She has since learned how to get the lid open long enough to start pulling out stuff near the top (at least enough to start licking it).

Noel's Lunch

Bacon and Slim Fast...mmm

3rd and 4th Grade Play

Our star

Eric has a speaking part this year.  Apparently the loose tooth was a bit distracting while waiting for his part.

Of course there was singing and dancing!