A Random Act of Kindness

I have been driving on a doughnut for about 2 or 3 weeks because I had a bald tire that picked up a few nails and a tack. I would rather have gotten a new tire, but with how much we get sent home due to low call volume, I just couldn't. I made a comment yesterday to the guy I sit next to, who I have only been working with for a few months, about not being able to speed to work due to the gimpy tire. He asked if it was the same tire from a few weeks ago. I told him it was. Then we logged into our computers and started taking calls. I didn't really think much about the interaction we had just had. It was just idle chit chat. About an hour later he gives me a note that says if I give him the tire he would get it fixed for me the next day.  I was shocked! The last time I had a flat tire, I drove on the doughnut for about 2 months until people from church found out and took care of it for me. When I went on my last break, he followed me out to my van and took the tire out of my trunk. Tonight, during our break, he followed me out to my car again and put the tire back in the trunk. It was a totally different tire. He said it was a used tire that he got for only about $20, but I was shocked that he did that for me. He said that it was not a big deal, and that he would be a jerk if he didn't help me because I have 3 kids that ride in that van as well. It is a big deal to me. People don't usually do this kind of stuff for me. I am going to have to have someone help me change the tire still, but I can do that easier than I could get the tire. I am so glad that there are people out there that are willing to go out of their way to help.

Feeling Guilty

I am feeling like I am sending my kids to whoever will take them this weekend. According to the parenting agreement I have with their dad, I have them this weekend. I have to work on the weekends though.  Yesterday, my regular babysitter watched them until I got home around 7pm. I, then, had only about an hour to an hour and a half before they went to bed (yes, I am one of those mean parents that make my kids go to bed when it is still light out in the summer). This morning, they got to watch one cartoon before they had to get dressed, packed, and off to my sister's. I had to drop them off early enough for me to be to work by 9am. They are spending the night at her place tonight because it is easier for her than me dropping the kids off at 6am tomorrow so that I could be at work by 7am. Tomorrow, I work a split. I will be with my kids for church and a little while after. Then, they will be going to another babysitter's until I get off (I am scheduled until 9:30pm, but my be sent home earlier if the call volume is low). Monday, my regular babysitter will be back, and there is a chance I won't get home until bedtime.  I hate this. As school gets closer and closer, I am realizing how little I will see my kids once they go back and I start classes.

I know that I need to work, and I need to go to school to support my kids now and in the future. I want to be a good example for my kids. I want them to understand that having an education and willingness to work is important. I want them to know that I love them and will do whatever I need to do to give them a future. Knowing all of this stuff in my head doesn't make me feel less guilty when they ask me when I can do something with them or why they have to have a babysitter.

Goals...Here I Go Again

I have been thinking a lot lately about how I want my life to be.  I want a clean house. I want to get down to 145 pounds at least. I want my kids to know that I am the boss. (I know good luck on that one.) I want to get a degree so that I can make a future for my kids and me. Since I haven't been able to get to sleep lately, I decided last night to make some small goals to help me achieve a few of my bigger goals.  I am also working on some with a friend of mine and her mom in a contest where the loser does a small act of service for the winner. I put these goals on paper and found a nice folder dedicated to goals.  It is a bright orange folder sitting on my desk (if that doesn't remind me to do them, I don't know what will). I have, also, decided to report my progress on my blog to make me more accountable for my goals (it worked a few years ago).

My first big goal is to have a cleaner house (it is cleaner than it was a year ago, but still not clean enough). What I have done to help me accomplish this is I made a morning and night to do list. Each list has four things on them that I need to get done daily. They aren't big, but they are a start and with the way I am, I will most likely do more than what is on these lists. I will be happy to get them done however. I am going to reward myself in some way. I just haven't decided on the reward yet.

The other big goal that I am going to work on is weight loss. I know I say this a lot. I have a few motivating factors right now. First of all, I can no longer wear the clothes that I was so excited to fit back into a few months ago. I know this is my fault. My habit have slipped recently. I need to get back to portion control and exercising.  My other motivating factor is that my boyfriend is working very hard at losing with this goal. (Yes, I admit it, I am more motivating when people around me work on the same goal.  I'm sure I am not the only one.) To accomplish this goal I am doing a few things. My friend and I have two goals in our contest that will help, exercise and eating veggies. I have also made of goal of having only one Dr. Pepper a day. I know I should cut it out completely, but I can't do that right now. I am going to have to slowly wean myself of the stuff.

When I reported weekly before I was reporting on Mondays because that was what was most convenient at the time. I will try to report on Thursdays this time because that will be the end of my "weekend."

Taio Cruz Dynomite Lyrics

Boyfriend

I have been dating a wonderful man lately, Jason. We dated in high school and recently met back up on facebook.  He treats me so great! I didn't think that I deserved being treated like this until I started dating him.  He tells me that I am beautiful and gorgeous. He gives me parenting advise without judging me. He makes me laugh and smile. He makes me feel special!